So, I am totally overwhelmed and thankful and feeling blessed today. Yesterday, my great friends posted in the newspaper a really nice article about me and my situation. When I woke up in the morning and checked my email (which I do regularly bc I am a total addict), I had about 100 emails from past friends, co-workers, and some people that I don’t even know just emailing their prayers and thoughts and love.
I am so overwhelmed by the love and outreach extended by everyone. This is the very worst situation that I have ever been faced with in my entire life. HOWEVER…I can only think that there has to be a reason-a plan that God has for me and my family. I am a strong person, and even though sometimes I have my dark days where I sit and cry and wonder “why me?”, I have my amazing friends to fall back on. They keep me grounded and help me remember that I am not alone in this fight. And of course my amazing husband…I don’t know what I would do without him. He is worth more than anything to me. There is nothing that he would not do for me and the boys. I am so blessed with him. I really picked the right guy, that is for sure.
I am really excited about my trip to Cincinatti this coming Monday. I don’t know for sure if I will get accepted into the clinical trial. But, I know that I will have tried my best and would be willing to do whatever it takes to help find a cure for this insanity of a disease. I tell ya…what makes LAM so difficult is that it absolutlely strips a person of their independance. I can barely do a quarter of the things that I used to do. This is such a struggle and sadness for me b/c I am so independant and don’t ever want help for anything. And now, I basically have to rely on others to help me live my life. It is a strange feeling, but I am getting more and more used to it.
I am almost certain that I will be put on oxygen at this appointment. This will give me a lot more ability to handle more things. The reason that I cannot do much is b/c my oxygen saturations go down so fast in the simplest of tasks! But if I get put on oxygen, I will have more energy to be able to do more things. I need the help badly…and I recognize that more and more each day.
It has been a horrible past month in the breathing area with the humidity and heat. I really need some relief. The bad thing about LAM is that THERE ARE NO BREAKS. This is my life…24 hours a day…every day.
I am looking forward to my fundraiser! I am overwhelmed by the community support, and can’t wait to see everyone.
xoxooxxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Melanie Putnam 
Melanie Putnam….I love your new blog. I think it is a great idea for you to maintain this blog to let everybody know how you feel and what your daily thoughts are. Like I said in MY new blog, I wish everyone had a one. It’s interesting to see what people write about!
By the way, I’m glad we are having such success with your fundraiser and that we are sold out. Nobody deserves it more than you do! I can’t imagine going through what you do and then trying to keep a positive attitude and you do a great job.
I’ll see you bright and early in the morning!
Thank you Chris Kelley. I am looking forward to seeing Sophie in the morning. I am so thankful that the fundraiser sold out!! Thank you for all of the HARD WORK THAT YOU HAVE DONE!!! You are a rockstar.
And you just wait until you see the things I write about in there. I can be very open about my opinions…and I like that. LOL
I love the new website and your blog! it’s awesome! We are so glad we reserved a table at the funderaiser and can’t wait! I was thinking of dropping by a meal sometime? Would that be ok???